i feel like a complete mess.
ive got 2 papers on monday, geog and econs which is gonna make monday a damn intense day and im scared outta my wits because i suck at geog so bad it aint funny. and i can feel myself losing it -- i mean who walks into the sliding door not once but TWICE on the same day. im not concentrating on anything else other than how im gonna fuck up this common test so bad and im perpetually in daze mode. wed ive got math which i thought is gonna be okay but then last night i realised how much more shit i have to cover and then i had this frenzy/panic attack. and dont get me started on lit because i have barely started and lit aint exactly my strongest. (and damn rj hasnt taught us how to compare joseph conrad and wilfred owen in terms of modern writings and they're just gonna fling the question in our faces)
it's only common tests 2 but i feel fucking unprepared for everything. everyday i wake up looking bad and going to sleep looking bad as well (ok this is random haha). i cant wait till thurs when everything is over at least i can take 1.5 weeks of break and then slowly but consistently start studying for prelims. ive already planned out my after-cts-activities. he he
thurs: paper ends at 11am, go home sleep then go out
fri: shopppppppping! and then at night i'll go meet my girls
sat: shopppppingggg! wormy's bday dinner
sun: CUPCAKE BAKING
mon: CUPCAKE BAKING
tues: CUPCAKE BAKING
wed: CUPCAKE BAKING
thurs: CUPCAKE BAKING
fri: night out with girls
sat: night out with girls
sun: relax and plan new study timetable
i have been dreaming about cupcakes and i was telling andrew and charles about how im gonna set up a cupcake business next time and they told me the first step to success is to get the best recipes right. and trust me im gonna make my cupcakes unique and delicious. good cake, good frosting, good decorating. it aint gonna be like those preppy sch girls cupcakes (no offence yea) that just aim to look pretty but taste like shit. ive been sourcing out the amazing cupcake factories in the states and those are the real shit im talking about. charles told me about johnny cupcake and it's a pretty damn good idea. omg im fantasizing about cupcakes again help.
ok bye!